September 22, 2007

Dreams - My other reality

I had a very nice dream yesterday. Very short but the details were outstanding. For I saw and remember the cheekiness in her eyes. The kind that's so unassuming yet cheeky. The kind she often had when she's up to something - a surprise gift, or a well-hidden love note for me to excavate, or just something that she thinks only she knew.

And today, as I pass yet another Friday with some other distractions, I suddenly miss those eyes... that cheekiness within.

And of course, quite needless to say, I strongly felt like crying again.

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I was on holiday. It was with my mum and my sister. I don't know which one. Could have been both. We were in a shopping mall. Somehow, I got separated from my mum and sister. But I wasn't feeling panicky. I just went on to buy whatever I did. I don't remember what. There was a very strange lift. The lift felt like it was haunted. It didn't stop when it should and it stopped at in between levels. Perhaps it's just a very faulty lift. And not haunted at all. But I thought it was strange to have a malfunctioning lift in a big shopping mall. And when it was time to board the bus to leave the shopping mall, I went to the first level. And there were my mum and my sister sitting on a bench facing the lift. They seemed to be waiting for me. I went over and hugged them tight.

xxx

I was in a classroom. It felt like one of those classrooms from my primary school days. There were many people besides me. But I don't know them. Or I can't recall. I could only recall that Eugene was there too. Someone started singing karaoke in the classroom. There were microphones set up, the projector screen and the whole karaoke system set up. Eugene was singing with a girl. They were singing songs sung by Vivian Chow. I realised they were all her songs. I was listening. Then, Xinyi popped out from nowhere and told me to keep a pencil case in the cupboard. I was sitting beside a low cupboard. I kept the pencil case in, like she told me to. Inside the cupboard, there were many other pencil cases. I was the person in charge of keeping my classmates' pencil cases in the cupboard. How interesting.

xxx

Kay was very excited about something. She pulled me to this place where there's this tall counter table. And on it, there was a charm bracelet. On the charm bracelet, I could see many little photos. Photos of places we knew, photos of people we both knew. I looked at her and she looked at me, her eyes wildly cheeky. I couldn't help but smile. I knew she was up to something. Probably customising the charm bracelet as a gift for me.

I asked her, "Girl girl, what are you doing?"

And she has this really cheeky look and her eyes were twinkling. She called me "Ms Chua" and told me to come. She held up the charm bracelet and I could see all the little photos on it. It's really cute and lovely. But it was not completed yet. So, I had to wait.

She worked on finishing her craft on the bracelet. I just looked at her quietly. And at that very point in time, I was really, really taken. I knew why I love her. And I thought to myself, 'I would never hurt her.'

I was still looking at her, remembering the cheekiness in those eyes.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 01:26